I feel icky!!! I wrote something so dark!!!

I am doing National Novel Writing Month this year and writing Nordic centric Hetalia fan fics and I just finished writing for now and I need to take a break and a shower to wash the icky from me. I am writing whatever prompts I pull from my prompt cards, character cards and pick from one of the two setting thesaurus I have. Random eeny-meeny-miny-moe kind of things and pull from a pile of index cards with prompt ideas on them and just go on with that. And I happen to pick prison cell, poison and Finland. Yeah. It is a WW2 setting in a German prison and Finland is there to interrogate a Soviet spy that has information about the Aland Islands. 

Let's say the icky comes from a sadistic Nazi ally Finland poisoning and killing the spy!!! WHY FINNY WHY???????????????????????

I don't condone Nazi's or anything involving them. Nazi's give me the heebie-jeebies! But Finland was wearing the classic black SS uniform, he was acting like a cold bastard and he was going through a strange power trip in this short story. But I needed to get that vibe of fear and dark desire for power in the fic and it ended up making me want to scrub my body till it bleeds.

Hell I had more fun writing Aland Island x Denmark fic about the chickens. That one I pulled out Denmark, Kinky and Chicken Coop. That was cute and funny. But still the story with Finland scares me.

FINLAND IS SCARY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS MAN IS A FUCKING MONSTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!